Book Log: John Green is an asshole

John Green is an asshole. Not the bad kind of asshole, but an asshole nonetheless.

For two books he gave me the bliss the romantic-comedy-fan in me craves for. In fact, he generously indulged me with Alaska‘s pure wit and Hazel and Gus’s okay flirting. Then all of a sudden, true to being an asshole, he dumped me into oblivion by giving me tragedies that it took me several days to recover to. Green is an asshole, he is.


I just finished reading The Fault in our Stars and I found myself dreaming of Augustus Waters , the kind of lover I know I would want but I would not be able to get. Hot and attractive yet he is philosophical and witty.  This is the perfect guy I would want to have and Green had generously indulged me with Gus and then all of a sudden, he dropped the bomb and took him away! Just as how Mags’ image lingered in my head, Augustus haunted me in my sleep.

Masochism– that is what it is to describe reading John Green. By the time Gus fell very very sick, I found it hard to move forward with the book. It pains me to vividly picture this very hot attractive boy dying every second, every word. It pains me to see this guy who I have flirted to fading into nothingness. Imagine a dagger slashing my chest every time Green describes how cancer gnaws every part of Gus. And then finally he died, Hazel found that letter and the book ended. The pain the last five chapters had given me is a joy to read, I must admit– and that is where the masochism comes to play. I am tempted to read the book all over again yet I am afraid of another series of pain that I might experience.

I am hating him for abruptly killing characters, but I cannot hate him for his genius. I really don’t know, but I think Green has awakened my latent masochistic self.

But nonetheless, John Green is an asshole and is book is not for the weak of heart.


Trying to be busy…

What have I been doing lately?

For one, I am hating the whole week waiting for an episode of The Good Wife. They are on a roll. I haven’t been so hooked into a TV series since the Izzie-cancer arc from Grey’s Anatomy five years ago. I am so for Julianna Margulies to win an Emmy next year for that “We’re gonna come after you” kick-ass line.

Also, I have been catching up with Breaking Bad. I am about to start season 2. Few months ago, I thought people are rooting for Breaking Bad because Chemistry has made it into the mainstream, which sounded ridiculous to me. Then it made sense, the storyline is as gripping as it is awesome. And yeah, I know where Heisenberg came from.

I am almost finished in developing my web portfolio. I am proud to say that I have learned quite a good skills set this past few months. From photoshop to trying to figure out a way to fit my divs into one row, I must say I am very much happy of how my website looks. Just some editing and a few tweaks and I think it is ready for launching by the end of this November. *crossfingers


War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy

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You know I have been trying to delay reading Leo Tolstoy’s War and Peace for the longest time because its thickness is quite daunting. Well, I am on the second chapter now and a new Book Log Series is about to start. Stay tuned.


Gelo Lopez Copyreading

Want to be an awesome copyreader?

My highschool teacher, now a district supervisor at DepEd Bulacan, invited me to handle a two-day workshop for the participants of 2013 Region III Schools Press Conference. Five years ago, I was one of those participants and here I am now, excited to meet them up. I am supposed to train the participants in copyreading and headline writing, the category in which I won the 2008 nationals at South Cotabato.

Campus journalism has changed so much since my days, and here I am, trying to fuse my current views in social media and campus journalism. So for the past few days, I have been trying to work on a deck on social media and headline writing. Working for an online news outfit gave me an insight on how to introduce articles in social media. I think the way we craft copies for Facebook and Twitter could help these young campus journalists in understanding the new dynamics of journalism.

I am excited to meet my students. I am excited to share my experiences.

Book Log: Looking for Alaska

July 27, 2013
12:34 AM

I spent 24 hours reading John Green’s Looking for Alaska. Reading the book is a great experience for me. K saw me reading the book earlier this morning, I said that the book is really funny (I was at the first part of the book then. But here I am now, midnight, writing this book log with tears just about to fall from my eyes but they simply won’t. In fact, there are so many thing I want to say but I think, I will be needing to reread Pudge’s final paper…


The tears stayed just where they were about to fall, and they still didn’t. I feel that the most beautiful thing about this book– ignoring the fact that I am writing this with my pen almost dying on me– is that sense of longing it left me. I long to answer the same question Alaska had been asking: How do I get out of this labyrinth of despair?

I am in my 20s, got a good career so far  but I still find myself occasionally stuck in despair. Miles Halter dreamt of non-existence; I dream of the fame and all the glitz it accompanies. I somewhat achieved a certain extent of that, but I am still in this labyrinth. I run and run and run away, thinking that running is the easiest way out only to find out that I find myself lost deeper in the maze. Will I ever get out? I do not have the answer for that, maybe I will not have the answer for that, maybe we won’t; but I still hope that I will. Miles finally pinpointed his cause for hope. For me, I know there is, but I still can’t figure that out.

But the Old Man talked about despair and desire and how they usually go together. Despair is a by-product of desire, he said. And maybe it is the same big desire of mine that  keeps giving me this same despair. About this same time last year, I was lost– but I know for a fact that I am in a better disposition right now. And this cycle of greatness and downfall makes me think that there will be something better for me soon enough.


A little thought on last words.

Miles Halter is big with last words. Thinking about this and my situation makes me think that I will die, for sure, seeing the dawn (unlike Elias of Noli Me Tangere). 

PS. Thank you Aubrey for letting me borrow this wonderful book. 🙂